peacesoldier

nothing cute to write down this time its alcohol weather peach-lemon-lime kiss me under the ocean tide we may drown but it's worth the ride trace the shore of this crooked sea dream up a boat and sail with me closer to the sky then we've ever felt stay here and watch as the colors melt together all form the summer shade together we can all watch it fade

these letters are all in the same print every word looks just like the one before it but today they seem harder to read for some reason, today i can hardly see ive never had trouble with the weekends before, not until today youll be without me for 48 hours can you handle that on your own? i know you too well to leave you alone and you think im blind i see it all sweet heart from the coke to the pills and the cash for your thrills ive heard every excuse that youve ever said and i listen to every lie. and with every thing you think i dont see, im closer to watching you die.

Im the morphine queen Im the one that you need when you have to forget what its like to be me Im the acid trip phene and I can make you see the beauty and reason for the things you beleive.

In her funeral clothes she's dressed to kill in that shade of black, she wears so well but her brown eyes I swear, dont lie they've broken hearts too many times She'll cry a lake to drown you in before the blood is dried and your veins run thin you think you've taken all she has but you still cant steal her past memories are too hard to grasp you've never had that much inspiration but have fun when you go and fake it trying to share with the world the damage you've done but in her funeral dress she'll look her best just so all the people there will know what you left behind was worth it I hope you know that it's all wo

reading his note makes me want to write mine. knowing its been done before, just makes it seem that much easier. im running out of passion, running out of sympathy and no one is going to do this for me. no one is going to ever kill me. i just can't expect that much any more from people who dont know or care. Im greatfull, hell so greatfull. but how much 'good' can I take from here I swear, I've got the right idea the right inspiration, the right feeling. I've got the gift of feeling numb. I swear im enthusiastic, see, I've got the right idea. I just cant get the same feeling now I just cant get that feeling the envy I hav